Parents Reasoning: ins and outs of insanity

      I'm no angel, ill be the first to testify to that. I might drink a little too much, stay out a little too late, and ocassionly reason with little white lies. But im young. This is what you do before you spend the rest of your life locked away in a house with a man you might or might not love, and children that cause more of a headache then anything else.
       Now what i dont comprehend with parents is the whole.kicking your child out of the house scenerio. They tell you they'll get an apartment, and you say good luck you have no money. So then where are you expecting them to go? Yeaa they have friends, they can couch surf for a little, but that only gets you so far.
      Your basically telling your child I dont give a fuck, live on the streets. And then you end it with that infamous line "you are not welcomed back."
      So say goodbye to your child, the future husband and grandkids you'll never meet. Say goodbye to any hope of having a relationship with your kid, for what? Something you think they did, but didnt. You ruined your relationship, caused hatred for both, for nothing.

Happy now?

Letting Go

     How many times can you really forgive someone? Their mistakes in the past are always there, stored away in the back of your mind ready to unhatch themselves at the worst of moments. Can someone ever really change? They promise it, swear to it. But who they where, the person that caused nothing but pain, is always there somewhere ready to rear that sneering head of theirs. And why can't people just give up after breakups? Its what you wanted. So im not sitting at home, crying over a past love thats long been missing, you feel the need to just be mallicious?
        Some people are just so arrogant and set in their ways, they have no idea what their doing. Or they manipulative enough where they know exactly what their doing. Ill take the later when it comes to you. Always finding someway to hold me by a string, "i really need to talk to you, but today doesnt work...niether does tomorrow."
Play your games with someone else.

       Ive never been so disgusted or felt so betrayed by someone who throws that four letter word around. We were good at a time. We were in love at a time. But I reallized I was in love with the 17 year old boy who was sweet and trustworthy....but he was lost some years ago. We've both grown, your cocky and arrogant and egotistical, and will never love someone more then you love yourself. And im no longer the girl who'll put up with it.

I wish I could say I was angry, or hurt, or even just felt the tiniest bit of love for you, but I cant...im numb.

You cant blame distance on your consistent need to flirt with others, you were well aware from the beginning distance played a big part for us. And you certainly cant blame distance on your choice to keep me a secret.